:)

2010-06-09T00:34:00.000+08:00

outside iluma w/ bro

outside iluma.

lol...

SMILEY! =)

2010-06-01T00:37:00.004+08:00

dead blog. aiya. however, I'll be using tumblr.
I'm happy, you're happy, everyone's happy. yay. ^^

Goldie.

Pin & Geraldine♥

Geraldine♥ & I.

Goldie, Dre and I.

Angela ♥ & I.

2010-05-18T10:53:00.003+08:00

If we ever meet again..
he doesn't loves you anymore,
time to let go..

2010-05-17T16:00:00.001+08:00

I'll be using tumblr. ;)

heartless guy with someone else when we're still together.
bet he don't even care anymore.

2010-05-13T14:08:00.002+08:00

hurts to still love someone who doesn't loves you anymore. ;'(

2010-04-25T15:19:00.001+08:00

The phone's been patient to hear your call
But you never touched the dial
You never touched the dial, now I know
There's someone I wish walked through these halls
But you'll never take the chance to come home
So come home.

we're not typical. I'll be waiting :'(

2010-04-21T08:54:00.003+08:00

I need fcuking time.
I can't wait to see what's our ending.
I'm fucking selfish,
I want to have you for myself, alone.
I'm obsessed with you.
please forgive me, for what I've said.
I love you.

2010-04-20T04:30:00.006+08:00

Fuck care all, fuck it all. I'll still wait for you baby.. ;'(
why do this to me? you just walk away.
you're lucky, both trains arrived.
I'll just jump.
but I know you'll just board your fucking train
& go to school.

SO MANY FUCKING THINGS I WANT.
I DON'T BOTHER ANYMORE.
('COZ I USED TO HAVE YOU.)
EVEN IF I'M TRYING,
I'LL NEVER FUCKING GET IT.
ESPECIALLY YOU.
FUCK IT. GET IT.
I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU.
YOU'RE FUCKING HEARTLESS.
YOU FUCKING LIAR.
I know you fucking love to see me
hurt.
if it makes you happy.
I'll.

AND FUCK, YES IM OBSESSED WITH YOU.
I MISS YOUR SMELL.
I MISS YOUR KISSES.
I MISS YOUR HUGS.
I MISS YOUR PRESENCE.
I MISS YOUR SMILES.
I MISS THE WAY YOU TALK.
I MISS THE WAY YOU WNA MAKE ME HAPPY.
I MISS THE WAY YOU'RE AROUND ME.
I MISS THE WAY YOU EAT.
I MISS THE WAY YOU PLAY THE GUITARS.
I MISS THE WAY YOU TOUCH MY HAIR.
I MISS YOU DRYING MY WET EYES.
I MISS YOU ON THE PHONE.
I MISS YOU TEXTING ME.
I MISS THE WAY YOU TEXT ME.
SO MANY OTHER THINGS I MISS ABOUT YOU.
WON'T COME BACK.
BECAUSE YOU WON'T GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE.
TO COME BACK.
I DOWAN TO HATE YOU.
I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU...
IM NOT ONLY OBSESSED BUT
IN LOVE WITH YOU.
I know you don't love me....
from the start..
...........................................................................

God, take my life please...

2010-04-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

Fuck this life.

2010-04-17T02:07:00.008+08:00

don't cha miss the past sometimes?.....................
:)

especially just to see you smile again...
;'(

2010-04-15T18:31:00.001+08:00

Day two without you..

2010-04-14T01:35:00.004+08:00

I swear I love the one and only YOU.

swear I've regretted what I've said.

It's the only you I want to spend time with,

or rather, my whole life.

:'(

so much I wna say, but I can't speak.

2010-04-05T07:38:00.004+08:00

I love you.

forever and always.

:'(

2010-04-04T06:35:00.003+08:00

wtf is this seriously.

I swear I don't hate anyone.

but to the extend someone is over my head now.

fuck you attitude retarded bitch.

so my comp's dead thnx to my stupidity.

and I'm using my sis comp, now it's dark, raining, macam Hard Rain & my sis making noise 'coz keyboard noisy. sounds like WITCH =_=

L4D2 ...

Elise iz fucking cute!

too much gaming lead to this. tyvm :)

2010-04-01T06:53:00.005+08:00

Baby,
it's been fucking hard for us all these while.
I swear I was happy with you.
now I admit I've given up all.
I was afraid you'd be angry with me,
if I went out with friends you don't like.
you don't have to stop contacting your friends 'coz of me.
y'knw what I mean.
YESTERDAY is really misunderstandings kay.. haiz.
secondly, 'bout me flaring..
not like you know me for the 1st day.
I curse and swear when shit happens, I never scold you right..
maybe it's my fault, 'though I've change, why still talk bout it?
I'm not perfect, baby..
I've more mistakes but let me know what is it please?

I can't take it anymore,
sometimes I really think you'll be happier alone.
I know you're losing faith and trust in me, rather, in this relationship.
or maybe, you don't love me as much?
but I know you need someone to support you through this shit you're going through..
I'm always giving my full attention to you, baby.
but what about me? I dont see you 3 times a week or so. maybe even none. =(
I don't even mind.

now that I've became the bitch, you're starting to hate me and giving me attitude.
what the hell did I did wrong?
I'm not like her.
I think I deserve better..
then my guess is we'll be happier apart.
you give me your excuses, I understand you need time.
I always give in. but now what?
why always so fierce to me now?
like I'll get slap by you anytime..

you'll never know how much I cry after every called from you,
when I think of you &
when I'm going to sleep.
Life gonna suck without you baby.. :(

I admit I've been immature throughout this 8 months..
we both & our lifestyle changed.
no idea whether you still love me, though.
I really hope you'll think through after watching the
vid I've made, baby.

I swear you're the only one who give me kisses like you did,
I swear you're the only one who give me hugs like you did.
the things we did together, I bet no couple did it before.

I love you baby, I'll never regret. :)
haiz.

................................................

2010-03-30T04:34:00.000+08:00

2010-03-29T18:05:00.000+08:00

I knew you won't want it anymore..

2010-03-29T02:16:00.000+08:00

Don't lie to me now
Now I'm erasing you
Throwing those memories out
Out to start something new
I'm throwing those memories

Darling
Don't lie to me
Darling
Don't lie to me
Darling
Don't lie to me

Darling don't

Breathe in slowly now
Darling don't lie to me
Breathe in slowly now
Darling don't lie to me
Inhale truth I plead
For your my only hope
Don't lie don't leave

Mindset on failure
The road you chose
Told me you loved me
Told me you
You

Take your time I'm only dying
Patiently I kneel here dying
Can't stop lying
You can't stop lying
Deep inside is where it lies

Don't mind me I'm only dying
Don't mind me I'm only dying
Don't mind me I'm only dying (What got me into this mess that devoured me)
Don't mind me I'm only dying (Lies and deceitful actions keep promising)
What got me into this mess that devoured me
Lies and deceitful actions keep promising
What got me into this mess that devoured me
Darling don't Lie
Lies and deceitful actions keep promising
Darling don't Lie
What got me into this mess that devoured me
Darling don't Lie
Lies and deceitful actions keep promising
Darling don't Lie

for you.
this is it.

2010-03-29T00:07:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY :)

I knew you'll hate me one day.
You said you gave it all, you sure you did?
It's always like a routine for me.

A week.

Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday.
x :) x x x x ':)'

example.

when we're together physically, I'm happy. :) real happy.
when it's time to go, 'till the next meeting all are shits.
messed up life, hurtful words, pathetic lies, what else?
I never thought of giving up because I've to wait.
ok? I'm selfish TYVM.
I'd never see my flaws, I'd never see my mistake.
even if I knew, I changed, did you?

我需要时间，我知道，我放得下。

maybe I'm not good enough,
I'm not pretty enough.
I'm not smart enough.
I'm not hardworking enough.
I'm not cute enough.
I'm not as short to be as cute.
I can't sing?
I've lip piercing like ahlianz?
I'm not as a good girl like her?
I use vulgarities?
I've retained once in Secondary School?
I've bad records?
I don't have any certificate qualifications YET.

forget 'bout it. I hate you.
fuck my life, seriously.

- Today..
l4d2 again lo.
he made a move again.
scare dai me. seriously omg.
I think it's a he HEHE.
if it's a female = GG.
I hope he/she doesn't haunt me while I sleep tonight,
I'm alone :)

2010-03-27T16:18:00.003+08:00

I ♥ my BESTIE JOSH !
so sweet right?!
♥ Winnie & Josie too !
eeheheh.
hope to see 'ya soon in Sg bestie!
do well in uni F3.
ehehe.

赤道和北极
I like this song.

was a song from my friend's blog.
she passed away two years back. :(
rip. :(

2010-03-26T08:30:00.002+08:00

Why Love?
I'm always not good enough.
whatever I tried, I still lose to her.
not pretty enough?
not smart enough?
what is it?
why?

forgive and forget.
fuck it.
how to fucking forget?
scars can't be healed.
tyvm.

2010-03-25T08:29:00.002+08:00

being in love suckass.

fmltyvm.

if you really cherish the person,

show how much you love them.

not just by words 'cause words are never true.

2010-03-24T06:23:00.004+08:00

END of my life.
ended two days back.
I love you.

I'm in a mess...
help me?
......
(if YOU read this, post a tag)
(:
y'knw who!

why in this darkest point in my life,
when I need the support and care now,
everything falls apart.
FML. haiz.

2010-03-24T06:23:00.000+08:00

END of my life.
ended two days back.
I love you.

2010-03-22T19:14:00.000+08:00

I feel relieved suddenly.
because
I've lost everything.

he never ever thought of me.
_|_ ^_^ _|_

2010-03-22T00:32:00.002+08:00

all my cock up faces. (Y)

FUCK okay.
I think I'm better off single.

I'm much happier with my friends :)
hehehehehehehehehehe.

back to smoking, back to wasting my life,
back to gaming, stop learning music, I hate learning new stuffs,
I'm never myself, again.

you can treat someone else like me in the past, better.
and what I get is shit and your attitude.
glhf.

:)

2010-03-20T02:08:00.005+08:00

And hey darling
I hope you're good tonight
And I know you don't feel right when I'm leaving
Yeah I want it but no I don't need it
Tell me something sweet to get me by
'Cuz I can't come back home till they're singing

La, la la la,la la la
'Til everyone is singing

If you can wait till I get home
Then I swear to you
That we can make this last
(La la la)
If you can wait till I get home
Then I swear come tomorrow
This will all be in the past
Well it might be for the best

And hey sweetie
Well I need you here tonight
And I know that you don't want to be leaving me
Yeah you want it but I can't help it
I just feel complete when you're by my side
But I know you can't come home 'til they're singing

La, la la la,la la la
'Til everyone is singing
La, la la la,la la la

If you can wait till I get home
Then I swear to you
That we can make this last
(La la la)
If you can wait till I get home
Then I swear come tomorrow
This will all be in the past
Well it might be for the best

You know you can't give me what I need
And even though you mean so much to me
I can't wait through everything
Is this really happening

I swear I'll never be happy again
And don't you dare say we can just be friends
I'm not just some boy you can sway
We knew it'd happen eventually

La, la la la, la la la
Now everybody's singing
La, la la la, la la la

FML this is how I feel.

A Day To Remember - If It Mean A Lot To You
click.

2010-03-18T07:00:00.002+08:00

I need my interest in music regenerate now.
It's never easy for anyone, but it's super hard for me.
many fucked up obstacle just on keep appearing, blocking my way.
God, please give me the wisdom, amen.

2010-03-17T03:04:00.002+08:00

Dear God, please stop animal abuse.

2010-03-15T02:48:00.006+08:00

I don't cry because I'm sad.
I only cry anger tears.

-

Nodame Cantabile, the movie.
epically awesome.

LOL!

I guess no one will believe me,
I listen to 94.2 fm when
I was younge r.

ps; 94.2 fm-classical music. ;)
-

I think I love my bro, do you?
hahahaha, my bro - Syed ^^
full of crap sial!
but I love baby most /heh.

physical pain is my remedy.
what's yours?

NOSTALGIC sia!
lululululululululululul.
2009 June.

2010-03-10T18:17:00.003+08:00

sometimes..
due to some wrong decision made in situations,
rejections occurs.

I pity some people who are in these situation, what can I do?

2010-03-09T10:47:00.001+08:00

while picking up little jewels on the field,
I realized I've lost my one & only most
precious diamond..

2010-03-05T13:21:00.005+08:00

没想到我有今天..

Fuck you to that guy I inherit your fucking genes.
seriously fucking hate you, even Mana (my sis) does.
we don't even expect much from you, but
you never ever treated us good, not even average.
when we were younger where are you, asshole!?
you made mummy suffer so much humiliation, made her stress out so much.
I guess at that point sooner or later she'll suffer from depression.
you can even mix up my name with mana's. wtf is wrong with you?
thats shows you don't even fcuking care, need not say 'bout birthdays.
& have you ever fcuking question yourself how did you treat mummy?
the most little amount of money you also want to gei gao (be calculative) so much.
who do you treat mummy as? maid ? fuck you, go die seriously.
she took care of the whole house and what you gave her?
nothing. just pathetic amount of $ for groceries.
bills? she had to pay herself.
where did she get the money?
and you, happily spending money, now in debts, mummy have to help
you, and now what'cha doing? idling, laze around.

sometimes i really wish karma strikes on you.
and then to think back, I pity you.

where else people tried to protect you by saying,
maybe you're stress or whatever fuck.
I'm sorry I won't take in any crap.
I don't give a damn.
because you don't care.
thats why you neglect.
because you neglect.
we wont respect you.

I don't have the rights to say this.
but, who cares now?

I hate you.

for God's fcuking sake.
fuck yourself seriously.

2010-03-01T15:06:00.000+08:00

DITCHED DRUMMING LESSONS TODAY G.G

2010-02-28T04:27:00.006+08:00

I think I miss X'mas.

Среќен роденден to Rita !
(Happy birthday)

wtf!
some people -
claims they're but they aren't.
(example : race.)
tired of these crappy people who revolves
around me. fuck yourselves, seriously.

too much on my mind.

_|_

2010-02-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

スターライト

2010-02-24T02:03:00.001+08:00

(I'm) Атеист

2010-02-18T06:32:00.004+08:00

can you see the wings?
previously from my album (fb)

well basically these few days I'm starting to worry much.
and thinking alot. FML seriously.

and then one of this FB application told me this :
You've been worrying too much about the future lately. So tonight, go ahead, put your faith in God, and just have a peaceful evening and a restful sleep.

so, I've enjoyed CNY. okay, not really.
er my birthday? well... sort off?
Valentine? okay G.G
in other ways.
Percy Jackson and the Olympians : the Lightning Thief is NICEY.
;)

2010-02-13T15:40:00.002+08:00

sometimes, whenever I thought I got closer,
actually I was further.

lifes sucks and you die !
I think I gna pierce full house on my left ear.
soon?
I expanded my 1st earhole to 4mm.
heh.
w/e you say lah.

happy cny heheheh.
happy birthday alvin !
happy Valentine's day & happy birthday Josielovelove ;)
-

2010-02-12T07:46:00.004+08:00

HEHEHEHEHEHEH. HAPPY NOT EGGY?
NYEH.

how to be happy siah. fuck up to the max.
$350 on virtual life just to be happy for a day. ROFL.
I'll get it back, dw. >.<

♥ baby ZriZz

sometimes I just wish you know how I feel w/o giving direct answers.

we will get out of this shit. we just need a 'lil faith.

I love you ;)

2010-02-06T02:32:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Feb babies.
happy birthday Josh & Naqib - 6th.
happy birthday Kim - 9th.
omg, sorry I missed those on 10th&11th!
happy birthday Henry & Larsen. - 12th.
happy birthday Alvin & JW- 13thh.
happy birthday Josie & Ferine & Riley & May May & Valentino- 14th.
happy birthday Danny & ME - 15th.
happy birthday Alex - 21st.

& blahblahblahblah to those friends on facebook, during this month.
sorry, didn't keep a look out cause everyday would be one of my friend's birthday.
oh well. ^^

2010-02-01T08:03:00.004+08:00

HAHAHA. should I go for classical ? ^^

Orchestra is awesome. too bad I quitted Violin at grade 1.
hmmm =/

REMEMBER THIS, SOLO? LOL!

2010-01-27T03:20:00.004+08:00

|♥|‡†♀. FUCK MY LIFE .♀†‡|♡|

as if I could be a dream.

thiz blog iz dead, perhaps somewhere I can waste my time on.

Hi. random facts.

you & I most likely to have own virtual life & the current REAL life.

I don't have good friends or w/e.

I don't get treated like an angel or princess or what the fuck, since young.

I'm not use to people who treats me well, so please don't.

so now, I'd like to thank God for this special person in my life ;)
please keep him safe & happy always.

-
hm, why is there so many 2-headed snake?

2010-01-27T02:50:00.000+08:00

http://www.myspace.com/fakecivilrules
.Undesired On December.

2010-01-25T21:00:00.003+08:00

went- Simei ITE, win.

2010-01-25T01:58:00.001+08:00

PIG.

it was never fake.

2010-01-22T03:53:00.002+08:00

2010-01-21T05:40:00.003+08:00

Your Guardian Angel.
('Me to You' bear from baby, Zri ^^)
-------------------------------------

FUCK. MY. LIFE.
your words may hurt but you'll never know.

so if I happens to react wrongly, I'm sorry.
----------------------------------------------

I think I wna apply for private school.
mum gave me that idea.
oh well, or maybe some music + academy school.
whatever -.-
--------------------------------------------------

2010-01-16T16:33:00.003+08:00

Symp's night.

swimming pool ^^.

Dre is fxcked up.

$2.

Itadakimasu, mina-san!

-
bought another pack..
SHK more.. die earlier :)

2010-01-01T15:48:00.005+08:00

I LOVE FLAMING LAMBO :D
hwat dammit!

went to get barcadi > vodka > lambo :D

Happy New Year.

1 thing to grieve about.
A7x's drummer - Jimmy 'The Rev' Sullivan passed away.
I was shocked, seriously. FML.

-

2009-12-17T09:54:00.001+08:00

"oi, don't lah."

Gone&Lost.

Forever.

2009-12-14T09:34:00.001+08:00

how fun FB can be?

-

Leonard & I

Telepathy.

2009-12-12T19:25:00.002+08:00

Leonard & I

telepathy.

2009-12-11T18:50:00.002+08:00

I missed my bursary award shyt thing fyuxing shyt ass dumbfyuk cause, (I,) defiant and got suspended in school, quarreled with teacher. bad attitude & attendanc = win. (^^V)
despite my better grades and attendance. FML, just hoping I'd get along next year.
Fucking hate Chi. not being racist to my mother tongue, language or what fuck. but just. suckass lah. lucky, most probably it'll be the same teacher. FML.

2009-12-11T00:37:00.005+08:00

FYUX
what's wrong having a mini X'mas tree on top
of my amp :)
I celebrate X'mas lah God dammed. hahahaha.

I can't stop laughing at this peekture.
spent the day at home with Val.
since she has nothing to do. asshole.

&

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIN&TEH&MY.
w/LOVELOVELOVELOVE.

-

1 hr drumming with cher 'tomorrow'. -.-
haiz. then dinner w/ Solo or something.
& I wna get a tattoo. can get discount HAHA !
from Solo's tattoo artist. HEHE.

iideshuyo.
Gordon's turning 97 omfg.
mum phoned him and he's willing to send me his world war pic, as a pilot. fyux.

shiodfvspiohfodi;shvciosdhcoidscdocjdscsdcdcsc,
G'nighttttt.

我想bunnnnnnny!

2009-12-09T22:45:00.001+08:00

things are not going well goddamnnnnnnnned.

2009-11-23T04:25:00.002+08:00

(pix quality gr8 ^^)

gna get my hair bit white tomorrow.

ciaoz.

2009-11-18T21:25:00.005+08:00

Dearest came over today. mum bought us lunch. laughed much. :)
how I wish it will never end :)
hai..

guess you're having problems kissing my lips :x

2009-11-18T20:48:00.001+08:00

I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you
To late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember now
Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to

this is gna happen sooner, or later.
freeze my heart before it hurts more.

2009-11-16T12:08:00.000+08:00

lie lie and more lies !

2009-11-11T04:20:00.004+08:00

managed to settle stuffs w/o quarreling.
I love you.
thanks for giving in to me & being understanding.

TREND -.-

not sure why I'm playing back though.
played back since, starting of hols?

maybe it'z my friends there.
really good friends & entertainers. ^^

-
@ Shawn. oi you pangseh me again. want die ?!

2009-11-07T03:04:00.000+08:00

I really wish you love me more.

2009-11-05T01:46:00.003+08:00

I wish you love me more.

2009-11-03T22:59:00.003+08:00

pierced by KR. ^^

Watch'd Micheal Jackson's This Is It. ^^

& MY PURR PURR. I LOVE YOU.
thanks for giving in to me, always.
making me laugh, everytime.
^^

2009-10-28T08:32:00.003+08:00

Ditched school. - win.

2009-10-21T00:04:00.001+08:00

Happier than usual.
realize, no more burdens.
I can go ahead myself.
I don't need anyone.
I don't live for anyone.
I live for myself.
thank you and I hate you.

-

went to school :/
J, fucker. SMOKE SMOKE SMOKE !

2009-10-17T18:54:00.002+08:00

hey.

woke up. - slept more than 10 hours..

received a punch on the face. credits, my mum.

well, no tattoos it's okay. at lease she allowed me to dye my hair white.

also. resuming my course too.
happy.

dream, of many weird stuffs in that 10+ hours.
crap.

WINNER FTW !

2009-10-17T02:18:00.002+08:00

(amp behind -.-)

k. look so fucking twit.

HE's away for 2 days.
miss him damn fyuxing much.
no texts. no calls.
I'm worried.

he bought me that bear, straight away came over to find me. (surprised)
cause I was crying, Sky jumped down from the 12th storey, and then gone.
seriously cheered me up.

(L) I'm better now.

2009-10-16T00:54:00.005+08:00

I'm tired.
I want to run.
I want to find.
I want to continue.
but I don't see hope anymore.

so I ran,
so I jumped.
and I secretly fell.
fell. and never come back anymore.

It hurts. I manage to hold on awhile more.
..........
from the 12th, I bid adieus.

[It hurts. to hear that you're gone.
why painful death ?
RIP. 15/10/09.]

2009-10-09T23:31:00.003+08:00

I swear I won't regret this most hurtful fucking thing I've said.

It's not the same.

So. good luck, have fun.

2009-10-05T14:29:00.001+08:00

Are you lying?

I'm sick and tired of it.

_|_

2009-10-05T14:29:00.000+08:00

you're lying?

I'm sick and tired of it.

_|_

2009-10-02T21:40:00.002+08:00

Happy yet regretted.

-
eh? eoy already. anyone, help pl0x?

-

I bored D:

-

anyone wna call chat?

-.-

2009-09-30T21:26:00.002+08:00

I think I gonna get a tattoo of a holocaust symbol or a star soon.
jealous of REUEL's D:

n'
lip piercing after bracers. _|_

2009-09-30T15:24:00.001+08:00

FUCK MY LIFE.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
FUCKING HATE THESE PEOPLE AROUND ME.
CAN'T THEY JUST FUCKING DIE.
FUCK YOU GUYS TO HELL. DAMMIT.

2009-09-29T23:44:00.001+08:00

LIE LIE LIEEEEEE :D

2009-09-27T21:59:00.001+08:00

LIARS

2009-09-27T03:10:00.003+08:00

I'm the happiest girl alive. :)
I have the best boyfriend in the world :)

HE give in to me, always. although it's always my fault :)
HE always give me the warmest hugs and kisses :)
HE got the sweetest surprises for me :)
He got into trouble because of me :(
HE trust me too much :)
HE changed for me :)

words can't describe how much he is to me.

I love you :)

2009-09-25T22:16:00.001+08:00

TTM era :/

today

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?cropsuccess&id=651306099#/album.php?aid=111616&id=651306099

:3

2009-09-24T00:17:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND ANNIVERSARY TO
MY BABY !

-

didn't go school today :(
caught a COLD.
fyux.

2009-09-23T21:21:00.002+08:00

after reading and thinking thoroughly.
I DECIDED.
not to express my authentic feelings/thoughts to anyone.

good luck and have fun :)

2009-09-21T01:56:00.001+08:00

for once, again.
I'm begging.
please fucking hell pick up my calls.
I'm fucking hell worried. please.

2009-09-19T17:00:00.004+08:00

Problems, who doesn't have?

been reminiscing bout the past, and yes
my mum iz right !
most of the guys,
alive are idiots mother fuckers.
e.g my dad.

so to all females out there !
choose the right one. don't trust too much :)

------
Crappy day.
slept 13 hours though.
no revision, not going to anytime soon.
maybe later?
resuming music courses soon.
yay? well, not.

Disappointed :/ tsk.

getting lip piercing anytime soon I guess.
can't wait till I get into tertiary.
I'm already slower than average people D:
(in terms of studies / secondary life)
fuck myself.

why people are lying _|_
even people closest to me.
fuck you liars.

fuck life.

2009-09-17T21:32:00.002+08:00

love love love.

-

Been really putting effort for everything.

I dyed back my hair black for school.

& I'm still disappointed with myself?
WHY.

I believe I can do it, seems that I can't, for now.

so less time left and I just realize.

I'm repeating what I've messed similarly to last year.

Fuck myself.

I really hate school hours, as in the duration.

Now I realize how important is it.

& now I got so much fuck to do.

& I got no time, but just to realize

I'm wasting my time on something not improtant.

Stupid enough?

Fuck myself double time.

really have to ; SELF-CONTROL.

FUCK^2. :) g'night.

2009-09-15T19:18:00.002+08:00

PINK PINK PINK
-

pink bracers iz gay.

I received thousands of comments 'bout that lor.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

I don't want to get blamed as a selfish bitch.

-
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
you. okay.

I asked 'bout promotion. less chance, but still there's hope. I can do it.

2009-09-15T01:32:00.004+08:00

NOITCELFER THEORY.

I think I'll die so soon.
Dying is your latest fashion,
trendy enough to kill your sadness.

nothing much for today.
Love. Much Love. Most Love.
&
chatted w/ Nic as usual.

Nic's Ibanez, picture from him.

-

Picture from Zovian.
LOL.

-

wondering when I could do proper preparations for up coming events.
I won't say that I'm fucking organized, but I think it's time for me to.
I REALLY FUCKING need time.

ANYWAY. JON, you miss me, gei siao ah.
你要篇谁?
`
:(
really missed those days when those people are there for me. I'knw I can trust them.
but where are they now? It's not coming back. I guess I've no one & I need no one.

turning point of life, new people new friends, it's not coming back & I don't want it to.

I love my hubby bunneh.

-

off topic, ever thought of people who love to contradicts.
only attention seeking?

fuck okay, revise what you say, slap yourself tight.
(My hands are on your neck and I think I hate you ^^ - Joe)

always make me think of a friend, A. sad case for her 'coz of an idiot that wants so much attention from her, no friends etc. and then, she left her boyfriend for him. tsk tsk tsk.

-
FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML .
@ Yol : oie, mai emo. maybe one day we'll come down visit?

2009-09-13T22:04:00.006+08:00

bottom, picture from Dinito, cute!
his cat doing kickflip lololol.

Nothing interesting.
found a m8 to talk to me, cheer me up, Nicholas.
thanks, even though we almost lost contact for like months already, thanks for remembering me.
so sorry I didn't make the effort to keep this friendship.
-

removed all my studs, gotta spray my hair black later.
disgusted by my own nails and appearance tomorrow. fux school.

-
ever thought of what happen that gets you into such screwed up situation?

I guess mine's jealousy and blinded by love. regret, too late.

-
13/09/09.

where am I again, now?

(:

Snowball.

Wittering rose, given by him.

sigh.
still in dilemma, anger, sadness, jealousy whatever you name it.

thanks Gx for listening to me.

g'na sleep now, school tomorrow. @ 2.30 a.m. 14/09/09.

countdown 10 more days.

2009-09-11T22:15:00.002+08:00

my nephew :) Alexander.

-

fuck up bracers, PINK ! GAY ENOUGH? ^_^
it didn't hurt as much as before.

after eating.... like SWEETS damn alot. HURTS !

-

went shopping w/ my mum. bought new high cut sneakers, sweater & spiked earring.
-

quite disappointed, & disappointed somebody. Idk why, this are going wrong these days. hate it.

zzzzzzzzzz

2009-09-11T04:36:00.003+08:00

Bend, your mind.

-

Hey.

so yes. I'm in dilemma again.

to love 'n trust. or just love and risk ?

today, again. 4:38 a.m I'm typing these shit outzxs.

StoplaCB : got people wna read dummies' blog. heh.
so yea.

Jealousy.

just like any other girls' typical personality.
I'm easy jealous'd.
& all I wanted is to gain trust. well, everything together, doesn't make me feel that I'm the one, although it's sweet most of the time.
sigh.....

2009-09-10T03:46:00.003+08:00

Stress, troubled ?
Don't read if you can take it when people contradicts.

Dying is your latest fashion, trendy enough to kill your sadness.

Love. Movie. Love. Lunch. Love. Love. Love. Love.

- 09/09/09

NEW DAY.

I'm tired, both physically and mentally, yet my brain is still active. contradicting.

basically, I don't trust anyone.
I'm so sorry to say, if you're reading this.

this is stupid and freaking dumb but I just wna express what I feel right now, as if there are people reading my dumb blog.

TYPICAL TEEN LOVE, THOUGHTS?

some teen might think- both person trust each other = perfect, long lasting couple.
some teen might think - I trust him/her. but what he/she can't be trusted. YET. using you as a decoy & thought that you'd be hidden in the dark? heh ?

RE: 1st thought (LOL) : eh.. quite true. but what if everything ended suddenly, he/she blurted out things you wna forget and wna keep it to yourself n' him/her?

consequences crapppppppy right. D:

RE: 2nd thought : I'knw it's unfair, selfish whatever crap you're gna spam me with. I'll continue.
kay. just like when you got 'betrayed' ? how ?
Better play safe than sorry.
no offense, but what I see from PEOPLE, some. They tend to break their promises when they're w/ someone they trust.

Example they broke promises like, not to

say his/her secrets.
talk bad 'bout you, ruin your reputation. LOL, anyway A.K.A as 'ka jiao wei'.
do stuffs they promised not to do.
whatever shit could happen he/she promised or you promised.

someone would get hurt when this occur, and that someone most probably blaming the opposite party for being such an ass.
TO ME, I'll think. it's better to blame yourself 'cause you made the wrong choice.
-

sad to say, I'm on the 2nd side.
stressed out, troubled and whatever shitxzs.
I love, and I don't trust that easily. (very selfish hor)
he get hurt easily and I'm usually stress, it's hard to express what I feel.

ty. I'm feeling better now, sigh.

-
BABE.
sorry not that I dwna help you this time round, I didn't 'baotou' you, but trying to help you. cause you're in the wrong. I'knw y're gna hate me nawhxz D:
I gna suck in school and rotzxs and dai rightxzs.
afterall we're just worry kay. in the 1st place if I didn't care, I wouldn't want to text you. :)
-
I'knw y'like pink.

-

woi ZK.
SINCERE APOLOGY TO ZK ZK ZK ZK ZK AKA BABE. -.-"
-

g'morninggggggggg. D: yawnxzsx.

2009-09-09T02:19:00.002+08:00

Happiest Girl Alive :)

I love you.

2009-09-08T00:02:00.003+08:00

Black n' White ?

see my fats.

2009-09-07T00:30:00.001+08:00

My hands are at your neck, and I think I hate you.

- Joe.

2009-09-05T20:54:00.003+08:00

EPIX DAYZXZSXZS ?

o.O they actually sell these at fairprice? MY GOD !

told you I bought an oven !

1st wine I bought in my life -_-"

2009-09-04T22:35:00.004+08:00

FCUK.
I failed 4 subs.
'knw why? didn't went for class tests.
& didn't produce my FT MC when I have it.
fuck myself right. _|_
55%, 30%, 40%, 30%, 65%, 88%, 30%.

fuck, 88% disgusting.

acting cute. =.=?

dinner @ 1am with my mum.

-

KELVIN GO OUT LEH. HAH. BLING BLING HERE BLING BLING THERE !

2009-09-01T22:41:00.003+08:00

? 1/09/09.

gosh, he got the strength to carry me. :)

act cute :/

2009-08-31T22:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL TEACHERS.

Esp. to :

罗老师. - Mr Loh.

Mdm. Ong.

Mr. Fahmie.

Ms. Neo.

Mr. Goh.

Ms. Tan.

Mrs. Ng / Ms. Kor.

Ms. Kannu.

Mr. Tan A.F.

Ms. Nusrath.

Ms. Kamala.

Ms. Chng.

Mr. Muru.

Mdm. Rositah.

of PHSS :)

(not in order)

sway'd.

2009-08-31T20:43:00.007+08:00

I handle interloping fuckheads with aplomb ?
heh ?

School as Usual, BUT

in-school suspension for ½ day; dyed hair.
+ the Teachers' Day Celebration Concert.
FUXING EPIC.

7:10 a.m. - 1 p.m. (approx.)

ZRIIIIIII! ♥
I took a few steps after I alighted from the bus;
n' then I received a surprise hug from Zri by the back.
heh :D I Love You.

tsk tsk tsk.

-

fed cats around my area. ♥
little fury animals. cute.

-

Gna buy a new oven soon. 'think my old one exploded, LOL.

Gna be very busy soon, for X.
if he's moving to SG, around this year,
Gna suffer from Massive Shopping in Ikea.
maybe also to look for a unit for him.

anyway. bye to my RHRL status.
:( :( :( :(

-

-tweeting through TEXT.

2009-08-30T18:06:00.003+08:00

REMINISCING.

this is so ancient !

Miss those days !

was like 2 years back, approx. ?

3 v 1 tuition session;
3 teachers

1 student

barbrabracksheep @ Somerset '07.

2009-08-30T05:36:00.003+08:00

'my' cat, trying to skate.

-

after two years. this is what we get?

will update more, later.